those moments

it's in those moments

when i'm caught

between touching you, and

not touching you

and finding out that the truth

doesn't always move

the narrative along -

that my life takes on the

orchestration of a car accident.

it's in those moments

when i keep finding the wrong

way to express myself

that i get the feeling i'm

a tourist here,

in my own town

in my own home

in my own bed.

its in those moments

when i'm pushing

myself too far, but somehow

it's never far enough,

and the burden of

carrying ugly

is just a knife slice

short of too heavy...

it's in those moments.